Coki’s World
my musings about my erratic journey through life #14
Funny pic
[ No Comments ] Posted on 09.07.08 under Uncategorized
I love funny pics, and a good friend of mine back in Texas sent this one to me, and I found it simply hilarious:
Gotta love the ‘From Mild to Wild!’ part, jeje!
Myspace Surveys Return !!
[ No Comments ] Posted on 05.19.08 under Uncategorized
So yah, apparently, all those old surveys that used to float around daily on myspace have now migrated to wordpress. I read this one on Jeff’s blog, so I took the opportunity to kill some boredom, and give Jeff a backlink!
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? When I was just a lad, I was chasing my neighbor across her yard, and i tripped over their water hose, and landing on a piece of metal sticking out of the ground, and it went right into my knee. Good times.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? It’s one of the few rooms in the house without decorations on the walls. I haven’t gotten to my room yet for the decorations … I’m going room by room.
3. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? Sometime during the Mesolithic Era.
4. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? To hug my daughter.
5. WHAT DO YOU MISS? Chocolate soccerballs, homeless guys, gokarts 
6. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? Mi enana. Oh, and my smirnoff watermelon vodka.
7. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 1.93 meters. 193 centimeters. 6′3″ for all you folks that don’t know metric. Grape ape, grape ape.
8. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DAY? What, am I supposed to be a vampire or something? Was this questionnaire stolen from an emo blog on myspace??
9. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? having no internet.
10. WHAT KIND OF HAIR COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? Black…with blue or red or pink streaks.
11. WHAT ABOUT EYE COLOR? Green or hazel eyes are my favorite. I can see blue eyes anytime I want, just gimme a mirror.
12. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? wtf, no option for blow? psh, q gay!
13. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? meatlovers, extra sauce, extra cheese
14. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? spaghetti o’s with meatballs or franks
15. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME? blue
16. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? yes, but who can eat just one ?? i mean, c’mon, the box has like, hundreds of the suckers in there, and they taste so cheesy and good!
17. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU EVER RECEIVED? a blowjob
18. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH? nah, but i might have a redbull or some gin lite.
19. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? victoria secret
20. WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU WANT? a 1987 hyundai, model not imporant. i’ve just always wanted a hyundai, but i never can afford them
21. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? no, but i would fall in love with a person, knowing that i could convince them from leaving, hehe, what can i say, i’m a leo, and we like to think we’re good at everthing, even manipulation
22. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA? no, never. i love the usa. thank god i was born here. i would never ever ever leave this awesome amazing country! god bless america, and george bush, and NOBODY ELSE!
23. YOUR WEAKNESSES? good alcohol, good sex, good cigs, good boobs/ass. gosh, i love my vices.
24. MET ANYONE FAMOUS? Let’s just say the apple didn’t fall off the tree and hit Newton on the head. I threw it at him 
25. FIRST JOB? Picking blueberries at a farm
26. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? Indeed I have.
27. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOUL MATE? no, the mathematical probabilities are too slim. But let’s just say that yes, we all a soul mate. What are the probabilities that your soulmate is your opposite sex, has the ideal outer appearance you want, has the ideal personality you want, lives in the same era as you do, AND lives in the same equatorial meridian as you do? Perhaps you can now see why I don’t believe in soulmates
28. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT? you dont wanna know … wink wink
29. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY? meh, yes, god i hate needles
30. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? My eyes.
31. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? a 1969 dodge charger replica General Lee, with Shakira in the passenger seat, topless.
32. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? I am a US Citizen, therefore, I will invoke my constitutional right to plead the 5th Amendment on this one.
33. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Garfield.
34. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST TURN OFF WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? Gosh, so many. Jealousy, close-minded, and nagging !
35. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU MISS ABOUT GRADE SCHOOL? Cookies, juice, and an afternoon nap !
36. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE? Suave 2 in 1
37. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? i do, but my typing is much better
38. ANY BAD HABITS? i’m self destructive, i love my vices, im stubborn, im always right, i bite my nails, i proscrastinate constantly, and my mind goes a thousand ways at once.
39. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON? it happens so rarely. why would i be jealous? my ego handles it just fine for me.
40. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? i so would.
41. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS? hell yah
42. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? metal music, hopping on my bike and speeding, playing GTA4, or my fav, angry sex
43. WHAT’S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE? To wake up each day.
44. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? My toy tonka dumptruck
45. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? 30ish
46. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID? hellll yah, barney rubble, from the flintstones!
47. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE? duh, kraft mac n cheese
48. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES? ummm, yes ?
49. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM? not only do i have a pc in my room, i have a cray supercomputer that requires a 1.21 jigawatt electrical connection to run it.
50. PLANS FOR TONIGHT? chemical castration. i dunno, i’ve never done it before, sounds kinda interesting.
51. WHAT’S THE FASTEST YOU’VE EVER GONE IN A CAR? in a car, roughly 160mph, on my bike, 187! gah, i love blurred tunnel vision
52. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? classical milk
53. LAST THING YOU DRANK? milk
54. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT? wtf cares.
55. DO YOU HAVE A LOW SELF ESTEEM OR A HIGH SELF ESTEEM? high. stubbornly high
56. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Mama, Papa, Soy Gay
why can we not see the future?
[ No Comments ] Posted on 04.22.08 under Uncategorized
a friend and i were recently talking about this, and it was a very interesting conversation. we have verifiable proof that we can see the past, any night we want to … just lookup into the sky, and look at the stars. are those stars even there anymore? let’s say that some of those stars are 1 million light years away. therefore, the light we are now seeing from that star was created 1 million years ago. so the star we are seeing now, is really how the star looked a million years ago, not how it looks like right now. for all we know, that star may not even exist anymore. so therefore, we can see the past, every night of the week. now, just simply look around us; we are seeing the present. therefore, why can’t we see the future? since time as we know it, is man-made … it is simply a unit of measurement that we created, would it not make sense that time and space exist on a flat plane? and if such is the case, then why can’t we see the future ??
does it matter how we perceive ourselves?
[ No Comments ] Posted on 04.21.08 under Uncategorized
i tend to lean more towards the intellectual, philosophical, and crazy side of life. i know where the line is, and i’m usually on the right side of it. that being said, for my first post, i will post something that is more indicative of a typical thought in my head. i will try to control the ADD.
Everybody has an image of themselves and their own personality, what they think they are like, how they believe they are ‘inside’ etc. It would be impossible to function without such a perception.
Now, most people believe that this inner image of themselves in the ‘true’ them. So for instance if someone talked to me and thought I was rude for something I said, I would probably tell myself that no, they had merely misunderstood some secret aspect of me and got the wrong end of the stick. Generally, this is how I judge almost everything because (and I don’t mean this to sound arrogant because I believe it to be an aspect of all human nature) I value my own perception of me as being more accurate than anyone else’s. But can this possibly be right?
What are you, fundamentally? What meaning do the things inside your head have except how they affect your interaction with the world? If the vast majority of people who meet you find you aloof, or cold, or whatever, but you just put it down to shyness, then which is correct? The view from inside certainly does nothing for objectivity, and is surely outweighed in terms of numbers by the views of the many. So if you act aloofly with most of the people you meet, you are not shy, you are slimply aloof.
This sounds like a rather negative view, but it doesn’t have to be. A few years ago I was rather depressed and viewed myself as essentially worthless, a failure. Everything I did was wrong, everything I might try to do would fail. Now, this is a different view from what I hold now (that I am essentially a reasonably nice, intelligent, normal person) but it was identical in that, as I said above, I valued my own perception of me more than anyone else’s. So if I did something that I perceived as embarrassing, then I would disregard others‘ views of the situation almost completely. I would not think, for instance ‘how would I feel if someone did this to me’ and try to judge objectively from there, but somehow single myself and my action out as special and worthy of more attenton than if somebody else had done it. Which when depressed translates to agonising hours of cycling through the memory again and again accompanied by telling yourself how terrible a person you are.
This to me is one of many signs that our self-perceptions are not merely incorrect - they are not even real at all. You are not what you think you are: you are how you interact with the world, and what you do. If you steal something, you really are a thief regrdless of how you justify it to yourself. Likewise your most embarassing memories should be no more shameful than the extent to which others were annoyed by your actions.
You are not important. Your thoughts do not define you. And if you tell yourself something along the lines of “I’m a really interesting person - once you get to know me.” Then you’re not. You are only interesting insofar as you do or say interesting things. So do it.
I hope this all doesn’t sound too negative, because I find this an amazingly liberating concept. Any thoughts?